Dear Ex-Gyanendra Bir Bikram shah
Today i feel for you.
i was terribly wrong about you.
Let me lighten up myself by taking out everythings that was inside me for last 8 year
Let,me bold & say this
I thought you are a bad man.i think you killed king birendra and his family.i thought you did all those to become a king.i never tried to read your sad face when you were crowned, instead i read and got carried away with Dr.baburam bhatteri article on kantipur where he infused the conspiracy.i thought Dr.phd must have a rationality in his claim. Damn! I feel so much guilty now.for reading those lies & ignoring emotion on your face.well i was a teen justifies my stupidity.
Then,you took the power.insted of thinking of your intent as a country-loving man, who have no option but ,to give one more try to Fixed the issued about that sher bhahadur Deuba could not,i thought it was a part of plan.that you were already determined to do after killing your brother and his family.what a brainwashed citizens i was:here to i thought Dr.BRB was right .
And then came the"janaandolan"i didn't expect you would step down so easily.But,you did.i couldn't believe that."how a man who kill his own brother to become a king could step down so easily & quietly?"Thats why i thought, my deluded & paranoid mind made up his own conspiracy. Wait! There must have been some kind of agreement between him and politicians.so he came out quitely.i was so confident that all these "janaa Andolan "& "Loktantra"& "Ganatantra" was a well plotted plan to bring Maoists in main stream and later would bring you back.A grand designed plotted and aggred between indian government and raw and neplese politician and you.
I was such a terrible person.i never try to think it in other way- "what if he loved people & thus choose to step down rather then fighting until the last breath,giving damn about how many lives would bleed to death ..??
The constitution saga started one year,two year,three year,four year and they failed,& again another election again number begain one year,two year..... meanwhile i used to heard about paras,used to heard about komal
Mam ,use to see that goddess like face of Himani & your cute grandkids.seriously ! I feel extremely ashamed now thinking that i never evert try to feel you.i Never try to asked " How a father must be feeling to see his son in that condition??"" How it would feel to see daughter-in-law who once was from such a good family ended up in mess".i never tried to think h"a husband must be feeling to see his wife in pain and depressed".insted i was so poised with conspiracies that i thought you are a bad man,who all cares is about power & going per the plan quitely to get back to your thrones as per the agreement- a grand designed, designed to fed up and marking that the reason,get king back to the throne...Hurraayy!! Back to 2047 with space for Maoists.
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I am sorry that all this time i tried giving a meaning to your quietness as a selfish dad, selfish man,who sacrifices his brother and son for power.today on this day when nepal has constitution turn into a republic country .i realized how ill my perspective were my - conspiracies.i am feeling nauseous now.
Sir, forgive me for having all ill thoughts about you. Forgive me to take so long to realize your true self .those conspiracy theories are to be blamed.those propagand factories in the name of media house are to be blamed.i was just too young not to get carried away with those lies and fabrication & stories created for click baits.i was just too ignorant to think all doctorates are rational and intellect's. I was just too screwed up to think rationally
I look at the Syria & Assad and think of you and what he is doing & what you did. Damn! You are such a nice person.
Anyway i am changed now,with new constitution i have
Flushed all the conspiracies & propaganda
Against you and against anyone. I am verymuch rational now. I know now,human behaves solely on his/ her own wishdown fights or retreats act or doesn't act all are based on his/ her own principal & integrity human are not puppet to walk the line drawn by someone, throughout his life to accomplished the "grand designed"
This is all i want to tell you.i was suffocated since the evening and needed to transfuse my poised blood and thoughts so i am writing this .Now i am so much in peace & freed.
Anyway you too are a free man.Hence i am sure no one will doubt your helping hand #jayanepal🇳🇵💟
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